You Never Know…

It was a sweaty July night 2004.  Maroon 5’s Songs About Jane was blasting from the CD player of my 2001 Toyota Camry.  My best friend and I had just blatantly lied to her mother about our evening plans.  Sorry Mama, we didn’t watch Miss Congeniality again.  We went hunting for a competitive game of Fuck the Dealer. At this point, we had developed a fondness for hockey, and lucky for us our high school team was good! I think it’s safe to say we were their biggest fans!  They loved to party and if you could get passed the whole, smelling like an ass all the time things, they were a lot of fun.

So, one of our super smelly, yet amazingly sweet hockey friends had let us know about this party that would be mostly hockey guys. One other thing you should know about hockey guys is that while they are the sweetest, most protective humans on the planet, they are also bat shit crazy!  I mean, they voluntarily play a sport that is known to cause loss of teeth.  They encourage fighting…on ice…while they’re wearing blades.  There is a certain level of rage required to take the ice.

Now, this was long before smart phones and a GPS was something only salesmen used.  So, we got actual, old-school directions….written down….on paper. The directions took us to a part of town we had never been before.  It was insanely dark and you could almost hear the sound of banjos playing in the background.  But Adam Levine’s sweet, sultry vocals kept us calm.  That or we were so young and naive to think anything of driving in the pitch black to a place we’d never been to party with people we barely knew.  I’m choosing to believe the Adam Levine thing.

We got to what we think was the driveway to said party.  “This can’t be right.”  We drove down a long, muddy mess of a driveway.  “Where the hell are we?” my friend asks.  To which I replied, “We’re either going to have a GREAT time, or we’re going to die.  Either way, let’s roll!” This is one of those moments, in hind-sight, that makes me terrified for my daughter.  We could immediately tell from the people stumbling out of the small A-frame cabin that these folks got the party started long before we got there.  So instead of being “fashionably” late, we were “stone cold sober while everyone else was hammered” late.

We walked through the front door praying we would find someone we knew.  Instead we were greeted by a couple in the midst of a lovers quarrel.  Now, my memory fails me as to what they were fighting about, but I’m fairly certain I can assume it was over something incredibly stupid.  The girl ended up outside crying with her girlfriends encircling her saying things like, “He’s an asshole!” and “You can do so much better!”  You know, the things girlfriends are contractually obligated to say in a situation like that.  The guy however, took a different approach.  He ripped his shirt off, shouted FUCK THAT BITCH, and started wrestling with one of his guy friends in the kitchen, which was also the living room, and a little bit the bathroom.

At this point, we should have made an about-face and bolted for the door, but being 18 and incredibly stupid, we saw a guy too hammered to keep inventory of his beer stash and a deck of cards.  Who wants to play Fuck the Dealer?! Where many would see a potentially dangerous situation, we saw an opportunity.  What can I say? We’re opportunists!

Needless to say, things thinned out pretty quickly after that shit show.  Which was fine by us. Fewer people equals more beer.  On the way back to my house, we recapped the evening, “How crazy was that fight?  Why did that guy not have a shirt on?  That girl must be psycho! Was he really fighting that guy or just playing?  Are we sure that was his place?”

Well, last week my friend and that guy celebrated their 5th wedding anniversary.  I am so proud to have been there the first time they met, the day they got married, and to welcome their two children.  While she still enjoys a solid game of Fuck the Dealer, he rarely removes clothing and screams FUCK THAT BITCH anymore.  They have established a life that’s built firmly on love, laughter, and understanding.  The way he looks at his bride is what every girl hopes for her best friend.  Sometimes Prince Charming rides in on a white stallion. Sometimes he rides in with an empty case of Busch Light on his head.

Happy Anniversary, you crazy kids!  Don’t ever stop being you!

 

P.S. that tiny A-frame cabin would turnout to be their very first home together.  The kitchen floor was still stained with his blood from that night.  Nostalgia.

Drinking My Juice Box; Putting Out The Vibe

My oldest is 8 years old.  He’s 8.  On a day to day basis, he is not into girls at all.  I mean, he has female friends. Friends whom he loves and enjoys spending time with. But when asked if he has a girlfriend he replies emphatically, NO! All of this makes me very very happy.  I might be slightly biased, but he is one handsome kid.  He already has giddy girls coming to the house looking for him while he hides in his basement bedroom pretending not to be home.  That’s right my son, you play hard to get for as long as you can. Drives them crazy!

This was the norm…until the 15-year-old blonde babysitter shows up. Did I mention she’s a dancer and weighs about a buck soaking wet?  I guess that goes without saying.  She’s a great kid and we all love her, but I think my eldest son has developed another L word for her. (Lust. It’s lust, in case you couldn’t figure that out.)

First of all, every time I mention that she is coming over to watch them he replies, “Yes!!” At first, I thought it was just because he got a solid 7 hours away from me.  But as time has passed, I have come to the conclusion that my son just has a thing for the older gals. Again, he’s wise beyond his years.

My suspicions were confirmed last Friday. The night before, I was putting him to bed, and I noticed he was in long pants and a long-sleeved flannel button-up shirt. Which wouldn’t be odd, except it was July and 100 degrees outside.  Nonetheless, I didn’t think much of it until the next morning.  I’m running around getting things ready for the sitter Magnumfor the day.  He came up the stairs from the basement still wearing his long pants and a flannel shirt.  With one major difference…his button up was no longer buttoned up.  That’s right.  He strolled upstairs looking like Magnum PI with 100% less body hair. Then asked if the babysitter was there yet.  Ummmmm, excuse me?!

Where is my little boy and who is this lothario I see before me? He then sat on the couch, you know, just putting out the vibe.   By the time I leave for work, his outfit hadn’t changed one bit. His nonchalance was borderline impressive.  “What?  I always sit like this.  Nothing new here.”  Bullshit!  This is the same kid who wears orange shorts with a lime green tank top.  His appearance had never been this calculated.

As I left for work, I’m wondering if my half-pint Hugh Hefner will succeed in his, slightly over-zealous, attempt to seduce the babysitter.  A part of me, the mom, was terrified at this thought.  He’s a baby.  What is he doing?  The other part of me, the delinquent, is like go get ’em son!  Way to aim high!  That’s my boy!

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Fast forward to the end of the day.  I was a little curious if he had made her endure his shirtless parade all day, or if he finally caved and put on some clothes.  I was a little scared he’d pulled a smokers jacket and pipe out from somewhere. Wouldn’t you know, I walked through the door, and the boy was still rocking the jammie pants with, you guessed it, no shirt at all.  Apparently, the opened button down wasn’t having the come-hither effect he was hoping for.  I guess at some point you just have to pull out all the stops and show them what you’re working with.

I did feel a little bad for the babysitter.  Whether she was aware of what was happening or not, there is a half naked kid running around the house all day.  That’s not weird at all.

I looked at him in wonderment and confusion. How do you go from avoiding girls at all costs to blatantly working the room in your spiderman pajama pants?  I legitimately thought I had at least 4 more years before I had to deal with this stuff.   He’s 8.  8.  As in he’s only been on the planet long enough to think that the Cubs have always been good. Moral of the story, if you have an attractive teenage daughter, look out, there’s 59 lbs of raw, pre-pubescent sexual magnetism coming their way.

Your Mom Can’t Stop Peeing Herself. The Least You Could Do Is Buy A Card

I started working out again a few months ago and noticed that every time I did, I would pee a little in pants.  Sometimes more than others.  I have three kids so there was no mystery as to why this was happening.  I thought it was kind of funny and started taking pictures of my pee stained crotch (that I have shared in this post) and sending them to friends of mine who would undoubtedly be disgusted and then find it hilarious.  To my surprise they weren’t disgusted at all.  In fact, they found them all too familiar.  Apparently, I wasn’t the only one with leakage issues.  Moms are involuntarily peeing themselves, and it’s awful and hilarious.

20180208_165702I figured since Mother’s Day is right around corner (May 13th, you’re welcome) now is as good a time as any to bring this disgusting little Snapchat-1881934696consequence of conception to light.  Have you ever been somewhere with a mom and the leave abruptly?  Yup. She pissed herself.  Have you ever heard a laughing woman quickly stop laughing?  Yup. She pissed herself.  Have you ever seen a woman standing in a long bathroom line at a concert? Yup She pissed herself.  Every mom you know is always peeing in her pants… just a little bit.

20180216_170928I used to love jumping on trampolines. Not anymore! Going for a run was a great way to relieve stress.  Nope.  Working out kept me in shape and gave me more energy.  Now, it just gives me more laundry. And don’t get me started on jumping jacks!!  I love to Snapchat-827610937laugh. I mean, LOVE to laugh.  A life without laughter is not a life worth living.  These days my Ha Ha Ha’s are followed by Oh, Oh- No’s.  And God forbid I get a cold. Between the coughing and the sneezing, I don’t own enough pairs of underwear. And something you might not realize, it doesn’t matter if she had a baby scooped out thanks to modern medicine, or shot one out the shoot the old fashioned way.  Perpetuating the species fucks your plumbing up!

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So, this Mother’s Day remember that in addition to doing your laundry, cooking your meals, cleaning your house, running you and/or your kids all around town, trying to take care of herself, working a Full or part-time job, and still looking bomb ass in her jeans, she is also probably walking around with a little bit of tinkle in her undies. I think the least you could do is buy a card, and say sorry for the weakened pelvic floor.

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!!!!

 

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The Mom Code: We’re All On the Same Team

Remember when you were in college or even high school and you would get all dressed up to go out on a Friday night?  Remember when you tried to convince everyone that it was to attract a dude?  Remember when that was a bold-faced lie?  Let’s be honest ladies, our whole lives we have been motivated by impressing/competing with other females.  It’s not entirely our fault.  We can thank biology/evolution for a lot of it, but at the end of the day the female-to-female relationship has always been tumultuous, to say the least.  Being a grown-up (ish) and a mom doesn’t change that.  Only now instead of trying to have better cleavage than the other girls, you’re trying to replicate everything you see on Pinterest or prove you’re a better mom by pushing yourself to your limits all the time. Girls, let’s cut the bullshit.  We’re all on the same team.  These are just a couple things to help ignite the conversation; mixed with a little humor, of course, because feelings are gross.

  1. Don’t be a bitch. I mean, you can totally be a betch.  Just don’t be a bitch.
  2. Talk about all the awful things you think or feel. I don’t know about you, but when I hear other moms say things like, “I could have beat him to within an inch of his life,” or “I’m going to drink my body weight tonight,” or “I’m thinking of running away, would you like to come with me,” I feel like I’ve found a soulmate.
  3.  If you’re in a parking lot with a lot of open parking spots, DO NOT park right next to another mom car (mini-van, large cross-over or full-size SUV). I get this one is really specific, but it drives me crazy. It’s a dick move regardless of who you are, but especially other moms.  You know kids swing those giant doors open like they’re on an episode of Miami Vice.  As if going anywhere with kids isn’t stressful enough, now I have anxiety about my kid or myself dinging your precious Honda Oddessy. The way I see it, if my kid dings your car and there are more than 2 open spots in the vicinity, you deserve it. Give a mom some space! 
  4. Don’t hate; Commiserate. Yeah, my kid is having a meltdown at Meijer.  Don’t even try to pretend like your’s has never done the same thing.
  5. It’s okay to have a sense of self. Just because a person(s) has come out of your vag does not mean you have lost all aspects of who you were before they were born, including your sense of humor. For some reason, it seems like moms lose their edge when they have kids.  Why? I’m not saying to need to watch Andrew Dice Clay with your kids, but you can still keep your four-letter vocabulary, your slutty clothes, and your favorite bottle of vodka vaulted for when your kids aren’t around. We’re still adults.  We’re still women.  And one day our kids will be gone, and I’d like to think that I could one day have a conversation with someone that has nothing to do with giving birth, breastfeeding, or the PTO. Plus, let’s be honest, a dick joke is always funny.

All jokes aside (just kidding jokes are never aside), as moms we are all fighting the same battle, keeping our shit together.  It’s a daily battle.  As a young mom, it took me years to find the confidence to find other mom friends.  I was always convinced that everyone was judging me.  Having a baby daddy does not make me a bad person.  Now, I have a great group of mom friends who I learn from every day, and who I hope learn things from me too. I am no longer afraid of the mom group because I’ve realized we are all just making it up as we go and trying not to say fuck in front of our kids. We are all on the same team. If we don’t work together, support each other, embrace each other, they win. They, of course, is our children.  They. Cannot. Win.

**Disclaimer: I am guilty of all of these, except the humor part. I have too many issues to not use humor as a defense mechanism.

 

The Real Reason We’re So Happy You Just Had A Baby

 

As I am a woman of a certain age, my Facebook feed is blowing up with pictures of babies.  From firstborns to fifth-borns and everywhere in between. There are babies fucking everywhere! I know when each of my kids was born, those posts of their first moments/days were always the most Liked and commented on, which got me thinking, “Why are people always so excited when someone else has a baby?”  I have a theory.  SHOCKING!

OMG BabyNow, I am not judging anyone for being excited about babies.  I even find myself getting giddy when someone I know endures the worst pain known to man only to be rewarded with little to no sleep, sore nipples, and a body that will never be the same no matter how much weight you lose.  But I think it goes beyond our biological encoding to reproduce and “aww, babies are cute.” Cause not all babies are cute, there I said it. My youngest looked like a lizard for the first few months of his life.  Seriously, that giant mouth on a newborn is terrifying.  Anyway, I think people with kids get so excited about their friends having kids because simply put, misery loves company.

I’m not saying that having kids is all miserable, but it’s pretty damn close.  I love my kids more than almost anything, but when I see one of my kidless friends announce the birth of their first child I can’t help but think, “HA!  Suckers!  suckers You fell for it.  You had a great life of doing whatever you want whenever you want, and now you’re screwed!”  For years those of us straddled with kids have seen posts of you getting dressed up to go out drinking every weekend, going on vacation whenever you want, going to the gym, taking a shower, sleeping, the list goes on and on.  We saw these posts and shook with envy.  We would curse you by saying, “One day.  One day they will suffer the same fate as us.”

In addition to hoping you suffer through the same misery that is having children, we just want to be able to do stuff with you again.  We can’t afford the three vacations to Jamaica every year, and drinking all day with a 2 -year-old is typically frowned upon.  Now that you have kids too, you’ll be forced to come over and drink shitty light beer on our couch just to say you had a “night out.”  We miss hanging out with you. Ruining your life as you know it is the only way to get you back.  So we make you think that you really need to have kids too.

xanacThen we took it a step further.  We make parenthood seem like the greatest gift on the planet.  Bloggers wrote about the joy of being a parent.  But there must have been a typo because what they meant to write about was the joy of Xanax.  We fooled you, like the generation before had done to us.  “Kids are great,” they would say.  “There is no greater joy.”  Bullshit!  A childless vacation is a greater joy.  Sleeping til whenever the fuck you want is a greater joy.  Taking a shit by yourself is a greater joy.  The day will come when you realize all things you once took for granted, and you will attempt to make a deal with the devil to finish a cup of hot coffee, just once.

So, welcome to the club!  We are so happy you are here.  If you need help or have any questions be sure to direct them to honest parents.  You will recognize the moms by the sweatpants and lack of makeup.  You can recognize the dads because they will actually have a child near them.  We will be here if you need us, and we will do our best not to blow smoke.  We will tell you that being a parent is exhausting, hard, neverending work that never receives thanks or appreciation. There are no more sick days.  There are no more Sunday Fundays.  Most days, I don’t even get to sit down for more than 20 seconds without someone needing something or shitting their pants. Your whole world is these little people who require all you have and then some more. While it most certainly is not always the most fun you will ever have in your life, being a parent is certainly the most challenging, and I’m still hoping for the most rewarding. Fingers crossed.

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**For all of you reading this who are struggling to have your own bundle of disaster, never give up.  Never stop trying. There is always a way to become a family.**

 

 

 

A Powell Family Christmas Card

As a family, we have a grand total of three pictures of all of us together.  Three. With the most recent being taken on Halloween, and all of which were taken on a cell phone. Even if we had a good picture of all of us, I’m still not sure I could do the Shutterfly Super Mom Christmas Card thing.  I simply don’t have the time, the money, or the care.  So, those of you who have been wondering what the Powells have been up to this year.  Allow me to divulge…

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Age: 7
Grade: 2
Reed will be 8 in a matter of weeks. If you talk to him you’d think he was turning 18.  He insists on participating in adult conversations about which he knows nothing.  Which isn’t annoying at all.  He has a comment for any and all situations.  If you want to know a random made up fact about anything, just ask Reed.  He hates girls and still pisses all over the toilet and floor every morning.  The only subject in school he gives a shit about it Art, which is fine.  He has amazing talent.  We’ve already started saving for Art School, and are accepting the fact that he’ll probably live in our basement for the rest of his life.
Greatest Accomplishment: Gaining just enough weight to not be concerned about his health.

Claire
Age: 2 20171201_184148
Claire will be three next month, despite the fact that is transitioning to 5t clothes as we speak.  She’s a bit of a beast.  She’s the quintessential threenager.  Everything is hers, nothing is her brother’s, and “no” is the answer to every question.  At some point, she came the conclusion that we care about her opinion. I assure you, we do not. She will be starting pre-school in January.  They will be focusing on her speech while she is there.  It would seem I have given birth to a Pentecostal minister who only speaks in tongues.  She loves food and hates pants.
Greatest Accomplishment: Making Reed uncomfortable by stripping naked to play in the basement.

Samuel
Age: 1 20171128_085549
Our little Sammy just turned 1 in October.  He is a real asshole.  He is in the process of cutting his final 4 teeth, and they are taking their sweet ass time.  In his defense, he is finally sleeping through the night, which only took him about a year to do.  I don’t want to say he’s a Mama’s Boy, but he makes Norman Bates looks like a well-adjusted, independent man of the world.  His interests include screaming, crying, open mouth kisses, and laughing at his brother.
Greatest Accomplishment: Figuring out how to walk on the hardwood in socks.

Josh
Age: 41 20171123_135149
Daddy got himself a big boy job.  No more working on cars and having people ask him for free/cheap labor.  Now he gets to sit at a desk and get fat just like the rest of us. While he would love to go to the gym at least three days a week, we have three children.  You take sleep over pretty much anything.  Despite all the changes he has seen over the year, he still hates most of humanity and drinks enough Bourbon to keep Kentucky in business for the foreseeable future.
Greatest Accomplishment: Establishing a new poop schedule based on the new work schedule.

Leah
Age: None of your damn business 20171209_112654
I have had yet another insane year.  I have started and stopped a diet/work out plan about three different times now.  Since February of this year, I have lost zero pounds.  If anyone breaks down and needs a spare tire, just give me a call.  I started drinking coffee for the first time in my life this year.  I officially feel like an adult.  I never wear makeup anymore, and rarely even shower.  If I have to put pants on that aren’t sweatpants, I bitch incessantly about it.  My life revolves around peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, diapers, and saying the word, “No” about a thousand times a day.  And as of January, it will be one whole year since I have had a haircut.
Greatest Accomplishment:  Not getting pregnant.

We hope everyone has enjoyed their 2017 as much as we have, and are looking forward to 2018 as much as we are. Merry Christmas!

BANG!

 

My 7-year-old son is in 2nd grade this year.  His homework is set up a little differently in that every week is given a list of things to do and he just needs to accomplish 5 of them by the next Friday.  Great. There are math worksheets, online spelling activities, and even some games.

Getting my kid to do homework is like getting my husband to drink an IPA.  It’s not going to happen.  But there is one homework activity he really likes, a game called BANG!  Basically, he has to cut out words that are typed on cardstock paper, put them in a bag, and shake them up.  In each set of words, there is the word BANG! on one card.  After you’ve mixed them all up, one person draws a card, reads it out loud to another person, and they have to correctly spell the word to get the point.  If you draw the BANG! card you have to give all your points to the other person.  Each week there are more cards that are added to pile.  So, by the end of the year, this is going to be the longest game ever!  I’m sure there’s a way to incorporate drinking.  I’ll get back to you on that.

One day, he comes home from school and asks if we can play BANG!  Keep in mind it’s one of those nights where there are about 47,000 things going on and I’m already running around like a chicken with my head cut off.   The 2-year-old wants her done, but not the way I’ve already done it. The 1-year-old is pissed only because it’s the afternoon and for no other reason.  My husband had just gotten home from work so he was busy receiving love and praise from the children simply for walking through the door. And I’m preparing 3 different meals for 6 people.  I looked at my 7-year-old with a look that could only be described as “are you fucking kidding me right now?” But I restrained myself.  I said, “Not tonight, honey. But maybe Mommy and Josh will play BANG! later.”  Mostly just to see if my husband was paying attention.  He was.  We both had a good chuckle through the chaos.  He laughed because of the play on words. I laughed because there was no way we would actually have mid-week sex.

We went through the evening as usual.  Ate, put the kids to bed, passed out on the couch watching something too stupid to even remember, went to bed.  Now, allow me to preface this next part with I am NOT a morning person.  I am barely a person at all in the morning.  I am an evil being that will rip your head off if you breath wrong.  All of which are great traits to have with children by the way.  spit takeThat being said, I get up with my son the next morning at 6:30, get him breakfast and sit in practical silence until it’s time for him to go to the bus. As I’m getting his things ready by the back door he says, “Oh hey, Mom. Did you and Josh play BANG! last night?” It was like manna from the comedy gods. So genuine. So sincere.  He definitely thought we were going to do his homework while he slept.  All I could think to say was, “No, we were too tired, but don’t talk to Josh about it. He’s pretty upset.”

I immediately told my husband the story to which he simply replied, “What the hell is wrong with you?”

I can’t wait until my son can read this when he’s older.